Duck on the Water

Yes another blog! Although I will admit this is most definitely time I should be using to finish homework, I just couldn't resist. School right now can only be described in one word, and that word would be .... Ridiculous. It's only the 2nd week, how is the possible? My high school teachers weren't lying when they said professors wouldn't baby us, it's true, it's far from pleasant. Yet with all the craziness I couldn't feel more at peace with life right now. It is well with my soul. Or is it?

Michael and I were at Waxahachie Lake this past weekend doing homework...well Michael was doing homework, I was sleeping. Typical. When I woke up I noticed a group of cute little ducks swimming close to bank just right in front of us. I took notice as they gracefully floated on top of the water. They were beautiful. Honestly, I could't stop watching them. It was a little windy outside so the water had a slight wave to it and when a wave would come, the ducks would just glide right along with the wave, almost as if they weren't affected at all. It was so interesting. They were just so calm, so peaceful. But one thing I know about ducks is that although they look calm on top of the water, their feet are constantly moving. It's how they float! They look so calm, but underneath they are doing everything they can to say a float, kicking their webbed feet as fast as they can go!

After some thinking, this reminded me of myself. Yes, I said it, I AM A DUCK! Sometimes I find myself trying to look so ''put together'', so calm and content, when in reality, my feet are kicking as hard as they can under water just so I don't sink.

I've let this thought bounce around in my head most of the week and tried to figure out areas that I feel confidences in and areas that make me nervous that I sometimes try to ignore.

CONFIDENCES

Where I go to school

Michael Bell

Being a SAGU cheerleader

My job

My degree

 CRAZY

Having to become an online student after this semester

Marriage (very excited that it's Michael, but some parts are scary)

Having to leave all my sweet cheer sisters

Not having a job in 4 months

Should I go to grad school? Where? How much does it cost?

The amount of school work I have

See what I mean. Life is crazy sometimes. It certainly messy a lot more than it is neat. I actually wrote down a similar list of confidences and crazies in my journal during my quiet time the other day and after praying over them and asking God for wisdom and contentment in all areas I felt God say, ''Take your list, mark out everything, tear it up, step on it, scribble on it, throw it away! 

Well that was a waste of paper.... 

Then God dropped a verse in my heart. One that I have known forever, but always tend to forget. 

''My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.'' So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work though me. 

                                                                                             2 Corinthians 12:9


How powerful is that? What an awesome display of who God is. A man who loved the world enough that he gave his Son to take my list of confidences and crazies. God knew I would be a little duck. Frankly, I think a lot of people are. He knew I would have times in my life when I was trying to look cool, calm and collected but inside, I really need him to help me out. His grace is all I need. His grace is enough!

So I will boast in my weakness.

I’m going to have to be a completely distance education student after this semester, but God’s grace is enough.

I’m sometimes nervous about marriage, it’s new, it’s scary, it’s a huge change but I love Michael Bell with all my heart and God’s grace is enough

I get sad anytime I think about leaving all my amazing friends on the SAGU cheer team, but God’s grace is enough.

I’m worried about moving to Austin in 4 months and not having any idea where I’ll work, but God’s grace is enough.

I have no idea if I want to go to grad school, I’d love to go, but I’m not sure where or if I could even afford it, but God’s grace is enough.

I am constantly reading, studying, or doing homework and this semester might kill me, but God’s grace is enough.

Catch my drift? I am choosing to speak GRACE over things I deal with under the water. His grace is always enough for me in any situation, and you too!